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Chapter 9

Chapter 9: His World

Nico

Amber candlelight clings to the gilded moldings of Le Cercle, warming the bare shoulders of the women and the dark velvet coats of the men who finance them. The salon runs on the quiet transaction of gold and reputation. Le Cercle serves men who slide their chips forward without a count, and tonight, the salon belongs to me. The heavy wool of my dark evening coat presses against my shoulders, the gold embroidery on the collar catching the light. My stack of gold solari sits at my elbow, a pile of minted suns. I slide them toward the center of the green cloth. Sandro Ferrara laughs at my left. His Italian vowels roll over the rattle of the ivory dice. I win the hand without looking at the cards. I look elsewhere, tracking the velvet drapes of the terrace door.

Le Cercle has a strict geography. The wives sit in the velvet chairs near the hearth, their pearls heavy and their conversation polite. The companions occupy the chaise lounges by the terrace, their silk dresses cut two inches lower, their hands resting along the velvet arms in postures rehearsed to be looked at. I have spent my entire life moving through these rooms, paying the bills and ignoring the rules.

Kahina stands by the stone balustrade, outside the salon's boundary. The deep teal silk of her gown catches the harbor breeze. The indigo veil sits where I made her keep it in company, draped from her hair across one shoulder, a thin screen of cloth that hides nothing and announces everything. The fabric molds to her ribs in a tight, unforgiving squeeze. She argued with the dressmaker yesterday, accusing me of trying to turn her into a lifeless European doll with his stitches. I told her she was breathing with unnecessary aggression. The dress fits exactly as I intended. It shows the slope of her shoulders and the curve of her waist. A merchant near the card table pauses with his goblet halfway to his mouth, watching her, and a younger man at the rail turns his head and forgets the woman beside him. She refuses to play the companion. Avoiding the chaise lounges, she ignores the men who offer her champagne. Her position remains at the rail, her gaze on the water as if she owns the harbor and the ships anchored in the bay. That pride is a beautiful, sharp thing, and I paid for every inch of it.

Théo Beaumont leans against the stone next to her. As the son of a Duke, he wears his title like a loose coat, always ready to drop it for a laugh. His voice rises above the hum of the salon, the Valderran vowels rounding every word. A gesture with his glass makes Kahina laugh. Her dark curls spill over her shoulder. The laugh is a genuine, ringing sound, one she has kept hidden from me on the deck of the Sans Souci.

My jaw sets and the glass goes warm in my grip. Three days I have spent trying to coax that laugh from her, and Théo manages it with a glass of wine and a Valderran story. The pile of solari stays on the green cloth. Sandro calls after me, but I ignore the shout. I cross the polished floor in four strides.

I have no right to a step of this, which is the joke I cannot tell. No right, because I bought her a freedom she does not know she holds. No right, because three nights ago in Lower Seravalle I stood with my back turned while a hard man took a name out of her in the dark, and I have not found one word for it since. A laugh given to Théo is a clean thing to be furious about; after the other, it is almost a mercy. And Armand is at his pillar watching me not give her up, which makes the fury useful as well as true.

"Monsieur Beaumont," I say, stepping between them. "The gaming table requires your lack of attention. Sandro is losing his family's salt monopoly."

Théo grins, raising his glass. "Signor Ferrara. I was simply explaining the correct way to eat a Valderran peach. Mademoiselle Kahina was unconvinced."

"She is rarely convinced by Valderra," I say.

Théo lifts his glass and lets me take her, but he does not look away the way a man looks away from another man's woman. He holds her a beat too long, warm, honestly sorry to lose the conversation, and that is worse than if he were playing. Théo likes her. Not the sport of her. Her. I have known him since we were boys, and I know the difference, and knowing it does nothing kind to the thing already burning under my ribs.

I reach for Kahina's elbow. The silk is cool under my thumb. The skin beneath it burns. She looks at me. Her dark eyes are sharp under the terrace lanterns.

"Win this hand, Duke's son," she says, her voice low. "Then we will negotiate the recovery of your passenger."

"I am taking the deposit now," I say.

I pull her past the heavy velvet drapes. The drapes fall behind us, cutting the light to a thin yellow line at our feet. The harbor of Seravalle is a black floor below the cliffs. Swaying lights of anchorages dot the water. Farther down the terrace, the salon music is a muted hum, the violins scraping out a tune ignored by the crowd. Cold salt air rushes into my throat, meeting the heat under my collar.

I press her back against the cool stone balustrade. The rough edge catches the teal silk of her skirt. She breathes fast. The bodice does not give.

"You are jealous," she says.

"Jealousy is too cheap a word," I say. "I am furious."

"And what is this?" She tilts her chin up, her gaze steady, challenging. "A reclamation?"

"A collection," I say.

My hand goes to the front of her gown. The silk is tight across her breasts. I run my thumb over the peak of her nipple. The small, hard bud rises instantly against the fabric. She gasps, her fingers locking onto the stone rail behind her.

"Nico," she mutters.

"You laugh for Théo," I say, dropping my voice low against her ear. "You look at him as if he has something you want."

"He is funny," she says, her voice uneven.

"I am far more entertaining," I say.

I slide my other hand down the tight drape of her skirt. My palm gathers the silk. The heavy fabric bunches in my fingers. My hand climbs her thigh. Her bare skin is warm and smooth. I reach the thin silk of her panties. The fabric is already damp where her sex rests against the seam, the warmth of her soaking through to my fingertips. Under the narrow lace of her underwear, my fingers find the swollen cleft. Her head presses back against the balustrade, her eyes wide in the dark.

"Someone will come," she says.

"Let them," I say.

I press my thumb against her clitoris, rubbing in slow circles while my fingers slide inside her. She is tight. Her muscles clamp around my hand. A soft, high sound escapes her throat. I press my mouth to her neck to taste the salt of her skin and the faint almond oil of Eclaire's soap. I want this to be a thing I am doing to her, my hand laid over the dark corner in Lower Seravalle to write the other man out of it.

She does not let me have it that way. Her hand drops from the stone rail and finds the front of my trousers, pressing the hard line of me through the wool, and then her fingers are working the buttons with the same sure speed she used to rob me blind on the deck. She frees me into the cold air and takes me in her palm, and the breath I meant to keep goes out of me against her hair.

"Not alone," she says, low, her mouth at my jaw. "You do not get to stand outside this one."

So we do it to each other. My fingers work in her, her hand strokes me in the dark, both of us breathing into the other's neck so the salon will not hear. The slow circles are gone. It is fast and graceless now, two people who have run out of pretending, the velvet drape the only wall between us and Théo's card game. Her hips chase my hand. My length jerks in her grip. The iron ring on her left ankle drags cold against the stone as she rises onto her toes. Her grip tightens on me, and my own breath shortens against her hair.

A man's laugh comes up the terrace steps. A woman answers him, near, the scrape of a slipper on stone.

We break apart. Her hand leaves me, mine leaves her, both of us short of it, the want stranded high and unspent. She turns to the rail and grips it, her shoulders working. I fold myself back into my trousers with hands that are not steady and button the wool over an ache that has nowhere to go. The couple drifts to the far end of the terrace and back inside, never seeing us.

It did not work. I wanted my hands to be the last ones on her, to write over the ones I watched in the dark three nights ago and have still not named, and instead she made me an equal in it, made me spend something too, and left us both standing here wanting. You cannot reclaim a person the way you clear a debt. She was never mine to reclaim. I tried it anyway, and she would not let me try it cleanly.

I straighten my cuffs. My grin comes back slower than usual.

"Held over," I say. "Not collected."

I step back through the velvet drapes. The bright amber light of the salon hits my eyes. The hum of voices and the click of the dice resume their place. Kahina follows a moment later. Her spine is straight, her face cool and composed. She smooths the front of her teal skirt with steady fingers. The guests ignore our return, too occupied with their gold and their companions. The dice rattle across the green cloth, the companions stay on their chaises, and the wives keep to the hearth with their pearls and their polite talk.

Felix Hartmann is at my elbow before I reach the table. He holds a glass of white wine. His fair hair is neat, and his expression is dry.

"Monsieur Hartmann," I say, picking up my glass.

"Your game is in ruins, Signor Ferrara," Felix says, his voice low, private. "But I have the name from the Isabella's manifests."

My eyes go to him. "Captain Moret?"

"Moret," Felix says. "He has run the southern routes for Armand for ten years. The manifests list saffron and textiles, but the weights are wrong. The charter and the tonnage do not match what those hulls actually carry, and someone is paying well to keep the difference off the books."

The wine turns sour in my mouth.

"Lead is heavy," I say, keeping my voice conversational.

"People are heavier," Felix says.

Two words, and the floor of my life tilts.

Lead is declared and weighed and taxed. People are the weight you do not write down, the tonnage that rides low out of Tunis and clears as saffron, the difference Felix's columns could never make sit still, because a person is not supposed to be a number and someone in my family's trade has made them one. The Marie-Claire riding heavy past the point on a bored afternoon. The women behind the sacking in Lower Seravalle, a hand checking teeth. The iron I keep a key to, locked in a box ten feet under my own bunk. The anchor on Armand's cuffs catching the light while he tells me to enjoy myself, the trade will keep.

It keeps because men like me are kept comfortable enough not to ask what the weight is, and I have been the most comfortable man in Seravalle for five years, on purpose.

Something that has been working loose in me since the pit, since the grit my money could not smooth, goes hard and final. I do not want my own ship so I can sail away from this anymore. I want it so I can come back and put this to the torch.

I keep my eyes on the wine. A man learns to hold a hand. But the boy who was bored on that deck is not the one holding this glass.

I look across the salon. Armand Vellier leans against a marble pillar, his silver hair catching the candlelight. A smile plays on his lips, the expression of a man who holds the punchline of a joke I am still learning. He pushes off his pillar and crosses the floor.

Kahina

The stays of the teal silk bodice pinch my lower ribs with every slow breath. Nico’s French dressmaker followed his instructions too closely, and he constructed a garment for one of the pale, stiff dolls who sit near the hearth. The indigo veil Nico makes me wear in company hangs from my hair across one shoulder, a few ounces of cloth that weighs on me far past its measure. It turns every eye in the room toward what I am here to be. My ribs ache under the tight stitches, and they are a constant reminder of the price he paid to display me here. Around us, the gilded scrollwork of Le Cercle catches the amber candlelight, casting long shadows across the green wool of the gaming tables. Stacked gold solari click as the players slide them forward. These young men gamble with coins they never earned, throwing their fortunes onto the felt without a second thought. My family's saffron was sold by the pound to pay for my sisters' capture, yet here the men push stacks of coin across the felt without counting them, as if gold has no weight at all.

The wives keep to the hearth, their heavy pearls resting against modest collarbones while they talk in polite, quiet murmurs. Closer to the terrace, the companions occupy the chaise lounges, their silk gowns cut low to show the slope of their breasts, and their hands are draped along the velvet in poses arranged to be looked at. A grey-bearded merchant at the nearest table stops with a chip pinched between his fingers and watches me over it until his neighbor clears his throat. His attention moves over me and leaves a warmth behind. Then there are the daughters and wives of standing who orbit Nico. Two of them stand at his shoulder, their laughter light and possessive. They possess the easy entitlement of women who have never had to be bought. One of them slides a silver cuff up her arm and laughs, placing her hand on the dark velvet of Nico's sleeve.

A small, hot sting rises in my throat, and it is unwelcome. Jealousy has no place in my plans, yet her hand on his coat tightens my belly before I can name it. I watch the line of his jaw and the way the velvet sits across his shoulders, and my body grows warm under the silk. These women belong to the world he belongs to, and I am the line item he is renting. I turn my back on them and turn the sting into a smile for Théo Beaumont. Théo stands beside me at the marble rail, gesturing with his glass as he tells a story of his family's Valderran vineyards. His voice is loud and cheerful. I laugh at his description of a Valderran peach, letting the sound carry back into the warm salon. Across the floor, Nico's mouth hardens. He sets down his glass too hard, and the sound cuts through the rattle of the dice. I want him to taste the same sharp bite I swallowed.

He is between us in four strides, and Théo reads the warning under his smile and lifts his glass in surrender. Then Nico's hand is at my elbow and the velvet drapes are closing behind us, and I let them.

I told myself, crossing the floor, that a jealous man is a careless man and a careless man is useful. It was a lie, and it was not even a good one. After Lower Seravalle I wanted his hands on me, wanted something of his laid over the memory of the corner and the wet stone and the name I bought with my body while he roared at the birds with his back turned. When he tried to make it a thing he was doing to me, I would not let him stand outside it. I made him spend too, and we came apart still short of it, and both of us were wanting.

We have not spoken of that night. He has not asked and I have not offered, and the silence sits between us, a third body at every meal. He knows. I watched him not-know it on the lane, the way he looked at my mouth and then made himself study his own bloodied hand instead.

When he brings me back through the drapes, my face is cool and my spine is straight, and the stake I cannot afford has grown another inch. I came onto that terrace to keep Nico careless, but I step off it wanting him, and I can still feel where his hand was.

Felix Hartmann is at Nico's elbow when we return. He is fair-haired and dry, holding a glass of white wine, and his voice is pitched low for Nico alone. I keep my eyes on the harbor and my ears on them. I catch enough to hear a name: Captain Moret has spent ten years on Armand's southern routes, and his manifests swear to saffron and textiles over hulls that ride too heavy for either. Felix's voice drops a half-step on the last of it, the way a man's does when he reaches the part he does not want overheard.

A draft slides off the terrace, and it is cold against the back of my neck.

The name joins the scrap of paper tucked into the hem of my dress, where Sanctuaire and Armand Vellier are written. It matches the anchor mark on Armand's cuffs. The scrap shifts against my hip as I breathe, and it is a small weight on the ledger of my secrets, one more coin added to the balance I must carry out of this room.

Nico's hand hovers over his gold solari, and his fingers hesitate. The color drains from under his tan, and his jaw sets against something he has not yet let himself finish. I hate the sight of it. I need him careless and useful. A heavy conscience will only make him slow.

Armand Vellier crosses the floor, and his silver hair catches the candlelight. His thumb moves once across the anchor stamped into his cufflink in an idle stroke, and his shoulders settle into the ease of a man who has already counted his winnings. He bows to me, his head tilting in a shallow, mocking greeting.

"You have done wonders with her, Nico," Armand says, his voice smooth. His eyes scan my gown, lingering on the tight bodice. "A masterpiece. Though I have always found that boys grow bored of their toys, no matter how beautifully painted."

Nico steps forward, and his shoulder blocks me from Armand’s view. The easy charm strips off his face and leaves a raw edge.

"She isn't a project, Armand," Nico says.

I step sideways, and I break Nico's protective guard to place myself directly in Armand's line of sight. A polite smile lifts the corners of my mouth as I summon the warm, polished charm of my father's court.

"Monsieur Vellier," I say, the rounded vowels of my father's court French sitting easy in my throat, every consonant landing clean. "Your concern is touching, but you underestimate your nephew's capacity for appreciation."

Armand's smile remains steady. His invitation is addressed to us both.

"I am hosting a small gathering at Le Sanctuaire tomorrow night. Only the inner circle. I would be delighted if you joined us, Nico. Both of you."

Nico's shoulders tighten as he prepares to refuse.

I reach out and rest my hand on the expensive wool of Armand's sleeve.

"We would be honored, Monsieur Vellier," I say, my voice light. "Nico speaks so highly of your hospitality. We will see you tomorrow."

Armand's eyes sharpen at the unexpected warmth of my touch. A quiet look passes over his face as he studies my hand on his sleeve.

"Until tomorrow then," he says, bowing again.

A turn of his shoulder carries him away. His heavy tobacco hangs in the air behind him, and it is thick and stale in my throat.

Nico turns pale. His fingers grip my arm too tight, and his thumb digs into my skin.

He drops his voice low, close to my ear. "What are you doing?"

The invitation is what I wanted, and that is exactly what I do not trust about it. Le Sanctuaire is the room I have steered away from since Eclaire's. It is the place the women do not come back from, and I have just smiled and agreed to walk into it on Armand's own arm. I hold to the find-first truth of it: the Ally is in Le Sanctuaire, and Moret runs through those doors. The only road to my sisters goes through the one room I am most afraid of.

But I have sat at enough of my father's councils to know the face of a man who believes he has moved me where he wants me, and Armand wore it as he bowed. He is not fooled. He counts the days left in Nico's week the way I count them, and he believes that when it closes I will return to him. Tonight's smile was his way of reminding me of that end, and my own was only a way to open a door. I do not know whose trap this is. I only know I am walking into it on purpose, which is the one move he has not planned for, because he does not yet understand that I am the hunter.

And under the knife and the name lies the weight I did not plan for. His fingers are still on my arm, gripping too hard, and I do not want them gone. I have a stake in the man. He is the one piece on this board I cannot afford and cannot set down.