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Chapter 8

Chapter 8: Lower Seravalle

Kahina

The stair down into Lower Seravalle is cut wet into the limestone, and the men at its bottom do not move aside for silk. Two of them stand with their arms folded across the dark as lamp-smoke presses up the throat of the steps, and they look at the four of us the way a butcher looks at a goose. Sandro goes first. He says a name I do not catch and a second name I do, and the heavier of the two unfolds his arms and lets us pass. He does it without a flourish, the way a man opens his own front door, and none of the others see it. I do.

The smell below is honest, at least. It smells of tallow and spilled wine, and under it lies the iron of blood with sawdust thrown down to drink it and not quite managing. There is no breeze to carry it off. The lamps hang in their own brown haze, and the roar comes up through my feet before it reaches my ears. A hundred men pack shoulder to shoulder around a sand pit and shout a bird to its death.

"God's teeth," Théo says, delighted, and pushes toward the rail with the joy of a child finding a wasps' nest. "Nico. Nico, they're fighting them. Look at the spurs on it."

"I see the spurs, Théo."

"I want to put money on the black one."

"The black one is going to lose," Nico says, and he is grinning. His salt-stiff shirt is open at the throat, and he slums and loves it, peeling gold from a soft purse to let Théo lose it for him. Rich men come down to where the floor has no perfume, and they feel brave for breathing the stench. They think they are the danger here, and I let them believe it. My father taught me that a man who believes he is dangerous is a man who has already stopped looking for the blade. I let them think I came for the lark, and I let them believe the borrowed plum silk is only an ornament. An ornament is permitted to drift, and a drifting woman is never watched.

Three feet behind their backs, I work.

I had my man marked before we reached the rail. He stands apart from the press, at the corner where the pit meets the back wall, holding a cup of wine he does not drink. He is Renaud, hard-faced and older. He watches the men who lay the coin; he does not look at the kills. Sandro named the corner to avoid on the stair, and he did not know what he gave me. Renaud is a shore-broker and a fence who knows which hull off the southern route carries spice and which carries people, paid in overland carriage to look the other way. The men who burned my coast do not stand in rooms like this, but men who count their cargo do, and they touch the shore here, and tonight the shore is close enough to put my hand on. My father taught me to read a merchant by his hands before his face, and Renaud's free hand keeps turning the ring on his smallest finger. It is a vain man's tell, and he wants his wealth admired. I let my gaze find the ring, and I let him see me watch it. A man who wants to be seen is a man who can be bought, and the only question is the currency.

The back wall is where I do not look and cannot stop seeing. Women work there without lace or scent, and a curtain of sacking hangs before a line of men with their coin already out. This is the floor the network keeps for its cheap weight. It is Eclaire's with the gilding scraped off, the scale balanced by flesh instead of coin. A blade's width is all that stands between me in borrowed silk and a girl behind that sacking, and only the accident of one soft buyer in a presentation room keeps me on this side of the cloth. My own father's house sat at the top of a trade with a floor exactly like this one under it. My mother's maids spoke of the girls below in whispers behind the indigo vats, and I knew not to look then any more than I look now.

The corner draws me. I do not pretend the bird interests me. I make a noblewoman's small disgusted sound at the dying, and I turn my shoulder to the pit, and that puts me beside him, and his eyes come down off the corner and onto the plum silk and the brown of my throat above it.

"You came down for the birds," he says. His tone is not a question. His voice is gravel and patience.

"I came down because the men I am with wanted to feel poor for an evening," I say. "Everything up there is painted. I wanted to see something true."

That earns me the weight of his hand, flat against the small of my back through the silk, and he claims me and tests whether I will step away. I do not step away. I lean a breath into it instead, and the hunger comes up in his hard face, and I have him. The gilded houses kill you slow, and Armand signs his patient ruin in ink across a month. This man kills fast, with what hangs on his hip, and I have learned to read both. A fast killer is a simple ledger, and this one I can spend.

"A clever foreign woman," he says against my ear, and his breath smells of wine and onions, "is the most expensive thing in this room."

"Then you should find out what you are buying," I say, "before you pay for it."

He takes my wrist and pulls me off the rail, back into the dark where the roof comes down low and the stone weeps with the harbor's wet, and I go, because going is the trade. He puts my spine to the cold rock, and he presses his mouth to my throat. I do not wait to be handled. I find him through his trousers and close my hand, and it jumps in him so hard his hips buck into my palm. There is the leash I came down here to take. A man with his blood gone south is a man who has stopped guarding his mouth, and his tongue is as loose as a split bag of grain.

He drags the plum silk off my shoulder and hauls the bodice down, and he bares my breasts to the wet cold, and his breath goes ragged. Three feet off, Nico bellows at a dying bird and never turns his head. I stroke him slow through the cloth and let him maul me, enduring his hard hands and his teeth at the soft of my breast, and between his groans I work him.

"You move real weight." I keep my mouth at his ear. "Not these birds. Cargo, off the south."

"I move what pays." His mouth drops hungry toward my breast, half gone.

"Who do you carry for." I tighten my hand and hold his pleasure a hair short of where he wants it. "A man like you answers to nobody."

"A man like me," he says, mouth open against my neck, almost on me now, past the end of his sense, "answers to whoever holds the charter. The southern weight runs under one anchor." Then he hears himself, and his hand comes up too late and grips my jaw, a warning to himself as much as to me. "You don't say that name down here, dove. Not anywhere."

I have the name. I have the one anchor and the name above him, the very shape of who runs the southern weight. And before his mouth closes on me, before the trade goes one inch past the inch I meant to spend, I pull back. My hand is gone and my body is gone, and I take a step into the dark that leaves him swollen and robbed. His pleasure is stranded with nowhere to put it. "That is all you are buying tonight," I say, and draw the bodice back over my breasts. It is a thread, and it is only a thread. This is not my sisters and the men with torches, nor is it the war; it is only a skirmish my body bought in the dark. My sisters are not in this room, and no fence in Seravalle can sell me their faces.

He could hurt me for it. I watch him weigh the insult in the bared second where a robbed man decides what to do, and I hold his flat eyes and do not flinch. Flinching is what gets a woman remembered down here, and I watch his appetite curdle into respect. He will remember the foreign woman who took a name off him on his own floor and left him standing. I smooth the ruined silk over my scraped shoulder, and I am not innocent of any of this, and I do not let it slow my hands.

I walk back toward the brown light, and Nico finds me there. He is flushed and bright, and gold spills from his fist. "There you are. You should have seen the gray cock, it opened the favorite throat to belly." Bird-blood is flecked on his fine cuff. His eyes are oblivious and warm, and he has no idea what my back was turned to. The man who bought me stood three feet off the entire time, watching the birds.

Then Théo opens his mouth.

It comes through the floor first, the way the roar did, but it is wrong. The note is different, and men turn from the pit toward something. Théo's voice rides over it, golden and loud. "I beg your pardon, friend, but the bird was clearly already." The friend is not a friend. There is the bright wet shine of a blade already out of a sleeve, and the press that was sport a breath ago is a wall with teeth.

I have my galley knife in my hand before Nico turns around.

I do not choose to draw it. My fingers know the seam where I sewed the sheath against the gown's hip, and the blade is out and low. It is turned in along my wrist the way I carry steel in a crowd, and I move toward Théo's blond head rather than away. The door is past him, and the only way out is through. The movement is fast and bodily, done in a single breath, and it does not care whose daughter I was.

Nico's face, when it comes around, is not the slumming boy's. Something cold has surfaced in it that looks as though it has surprised even him.

"Don't talk," I tell him, and my edge is out toward the closing dark. "Walk. Behind me."

Nico

Théo's idea, Sandro's door, and the pit below the harbor roaring with a hundred voices over a sand floor: this is the kind of low fun my whole gilded year has been rationed to keep me from. I love it on sight. The stair down from the harbor district stinks of tallow and old blood, and at the bottom Sandro knocks a particular rhythm on a particular door, and a man with a flattened nose looks us over and decides we are worth his time, and then we are inside, and the noise hits me in the chest like a wave taken broadside.

"Monsieur Beaumont," I tell Théo, putting a fistful of borrowed coin against his shoulder, "if I die down here I want it on the record that you brought me."

"You won't die. You'll lose your money and thank me." He is already grinning at the pit, blond and loud and three drinks happy, shouldering toward the rail where two birds are being held up by the throat for the crowd to price.

I put gold on the smaller one because it has murder in its eye, and it dies in nine heartbeats, and I lose, and I laugh, and I put more down on the next, and that is the night for a while. Coin on wood. Feathers and screaming, the sawdust gone dark underfoot. Sandro at my elbow easy as anything, calling the cuts before they land, known here, nodded at, at home in a way I have never once seen him at Le Cercle.

Then, between the kills, I look at the room instead of the pit, and the night turns the first time, quietly, with no warning at all.

In the corner a man is being held up by two others while a third works him low and methodical. Collection, not sport. A debt being taken out of a body because there is nothing else left to take it from, and the man's face when they let his head loll is the face of someone who already knows how this ends. Along the back wall, under one low roof, there are women for sale with none of Eclaire's silk on the transaction, the merchandise named plainly, a hand checking teeth. And there are crates stacked by the rear door with markings I half-know, the cargo-tongue from Felix's manifests, the words for what travels and how it is counted, and I would rather not know them and I know them anyway.

I reach for the joke. It is right there, it is always right there. I open my mouth for it and nothing comes, because the joke needs a register this room has never had to answer to, and down here my wit is a coin minted somewhere it isn't spent. I stand holding someone else's money in a place my money cannot smooth, and for the first time I have no purchase on the floor I'm standing on.

And there, at the rail by the rear, is Kahina.

She is talking low to a man with a hard flat face, a stranger my gut closes against the instant I see him, and whatever she is doing she is doing it well, leaning into it, reading him, working him the way I have watched her work nobody, because she has never once bothered to work me. I don't understand it. I cannot stop watching it. She moves through this room as though it was cut to her measure, competent where I am ornamental. I want her, and I am ashamed, the rich ornament at the rail with his fist full of coins, watching the only person here who knows what she is doing.

The hard-faced man puts a hand low on her back and draws her off the rail, toward the dark by the rear wall where the lamps give out. I tell myself to look away. I am the finest looker-away alive; it is my one true skill. I lay gold on a bird with murder in its eye and I do not watch the corner.

I watch the corner.

Through a gap in the press I see the pale line of her shoulder against the wet stone and the man's forearm laid across her like a bar, and her face above it, set and open-eyed and unafraid, doing a thing on purpose, and the rest is dark and bodies and I do not need to see it. My mind gets that far and stops, the way it stops at the manifests, at the letter, at every locked thing I have decided not to open. Three feet from me, while I lay gold on a dying bird, she is paying for something in the one currency I swore she would never have to spend again, and I did not see it because I was having such a wonderful night.

The rage that comes up is nothing like the quick flare over Théo and a laugh. It is cold and total and it has no clean target, because the man in the corner deserves killing and so do I. I want to put a face into the stone. I am still deciding whose when Théo's mouth, warm and careless and three drinks past sense, says the wrong thing to the wrong man over the wrong bet, and the night turns the second time, loud.

It comes up out of the floor. One voice, then ten, then the press of bodies shoving inward, and steel is out, a short blade catching the tallow light, and all at once we are the gilded outsiders who came down to watch and are now worth robbing or worth gutting, the crowd deciding which. A man closes on Théo with the knife low.

The cold thing surfaces before I choose it. It surfaced once on the Sans Souci with Giraud and it surfaces now faster, bodily, my hand already moving, and I take his wrist and turn it the wrong way against the joint and put my elbow through his face. He goes down. For one ugly breath he wears the corner-man's face and I am glad of it, glad of the bone giving under my knuckles, and the gladness frightens me worse than the speed, worse than how little I had to reach.

"Up," Sandro says, not panicked, never panicked, a hand in my collar and Théo's both, steering us through a gap only he can see toward the stair. "Now, Signor. Move." Going up the stinking steps two at a time I look back once and the pit is still roaring below the boards, indifferent, swallowing the noise of us leaving, and Sandro is the last up, unhurried, easy, glancing back at the room like a man who could have stayed.

Out on the lane the cold harbor air hits the blood on my knuckles. Kahina is there, a few feet off, her face put back together, the mark on her collarbone gone to shadow in the dark. I don't reach for the joke. I don't reach for the question either, the one that would make me know out loud the thing I already know, because I am exactly the coward this night has proven me to be. So we stand in the lane not saying it, the want and the shame and the rage and the new ugly knowledge all at once, the pit going on without us below the boards, a thing between us now with no words on it that neither of us will be the first to touch. I look at my hand.