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Chapter 4

Chapter 4: Inside Eclaire's

Kahina

The morning air inside Madame Eclaire’s smells of steam and stale wine, with twenty competing perfumes losing the argument by sunrise. The heat of last night lingers in the hallways, thick and heavy. I move through the waking corridors, mapping the halls and the exits.

In the communal bath, the copper tub is narrow, the water tepid by the time I climb in. I squeeze the rough lavender soap between my palms, producing a thin, grey lather. I scrub my arms and the soles of my feet, working the grease of the slave ship out of my skin. The pale bands the wrist cuffs left are fading now; the ship is twelve days behind me, and those irons came off when Eclaire's took me in. At home the bath ran hot enough to redden the tile, scented with rosewater and crushed orange peel carried in by the jugful. The lather here smells of tallow and cold water. The shackle on my left foot carries no chain now, only its own weight and a lock I have no key for, and the chafed skin beneath it stings under the soap. Elodie watches from the window, her eyes dull. Near the hearth, Marthe holds court, her hair piled high, her voice loud as she jokes with the bath-girl. She is a queen on a throne of straw, comfortable with the labor and deferring to no one.

I dry myself, wrapping a clean linen sheet around my shoulders, and sit at the breakfast table in the corner. The wooden platter holds cold bread and hard cheese, with turning figs piling the center. The figs have gone soft and brown at the stems, the kind my mother would have sent back to the kitchen with a single look. I eat them anyway. Across the table sits an older woman. Her face is all sharp planes, pale and dry. The jaw and the bones around her eyes are set like stone. She ignores Marthe's laughter and turns her back to Elodie's silent stare.

The older woman does not speak. She uses her knife to peel the melon, the blade sliding under the green rind in one continuous strip. She eats the fruit in small, clean bites. When she looks up, her eyes are dark and cold, and the corners of her mouth pull tight. It is the look of a woman watching the door and counting the people between herself and it. Then she turns the same weighing look on me, the way I have spent the morning reading everyone else. The loud one repeats herself; the silent one at the window is past using. She is looking for the one who will do something with a name. I let her find it. Then her gaze drops to the folded indigo veil at my wrist, my mother's, and stops there. Her jaw loosens, then sets again before I can read it, the look of a person placing a thing she has not seen in years. When she lifts her eyes again they are wet at the rims, a thing without reason, and angry, which has its uses. We exchange a single nod before she stands and leaves the table, her plate clean.

I finish my bread and walk back toward my room. In the narrow corridor, the older woman brushes past me, her shoulder pressing mine. Her hand slips into my palm, leaving a folded scrap of paper.

"Sanctuaire," she says, low and barely moving her lips, and then she is gone down the stairs.

I step into a side closet smelling of dirty wool and old candle wax. I open the paper. The handwriting is sharp and elegant: Armand Vellier, and below it, Sanctuaire. I fold it into the hem of my chemise and let the rough edge press against my thigh.

I do not understand her. That name in a new arrival's hand is as dangerous to the woman who gave it as to the one who carries it; if Armand learns who wrote Sanctuaire on a scrap, she does not see another season. She has nothing to gain from me. And still she handed it over and was gone before I could ask her name. I fold the question away with the paper. But it stays, a small wrong note, the way her eyes caught on my mother's veil.

I return to the common room and sit close to Marthe, who talks the way some people breathe. A woman who loves the sound of her own knowing will hand you a map if you look impressed at the right moments. I look impressed.

Marthe is dressing in a gown of yellow silk, the fabric cheap and loud. She pulls her laces tight, her ribs straining against the bodice as she ties the knot. "Vellier is the Duke's right hand, twenty years now," she says, her voice muffled as she bends over her shoes. "Thick as blood without the bother of it. He has the Duke's blessing, and the harbor guards know better than to ask questions about his ships. If he wants a girl, Madame Eclaire agrees."

"And the Duke?" I ask, leaning against the wooden post of the hearth.

"The Duke is in Valderre," Marthe says, straightening up with a grunt. "He cares only for the taxes. As long as the gold reaches the treasury, Armand operates without interference."

Marthe sees only the surface. There is a difference between a man who ignores and a man who signs, and a duke does not put his seal on a stranger's routes for nothing.

Elodie remains still at the window. "I remember a girl from Tunis," she says, her voice barely louder than the wind outside. "A dancer with gold rings in her ears. Armand took her to Le Sanctuaire three months ago." She does not leave the glass. "The rings came back. A week later they were on a tray in the jeweller's row, for sale. The girl did not come back at all."

"Armand likes them quiet," Marthe adds, painting her lips with red salve. "New arrivals only. He moves them on as soon as they learn the rules of the house. It is the new ones he wants, always. The ones who go to his Sanctuaire do not return."

Elodie has not moved from the glass. A year ago I would have looked at her the way I looked at the women who poured coffee in my father's halls, which is to say barely. I am among them now. Marthe grunts over her shoes, Elodie watches the glass, and the older woman has gone down the stairs with my mother's name behind her eyes. They are mine whether I want the weight of them or not. I tell myself I am here for my sisters only. It is already half a lie.

By midday, the front door swings open. Nico stands in the entryway in an open linen shirt, his forearms bare and brown from the sea. The dark hair of his chest shows under the cloth. My eyes go to the hollow of his throat, to the set of his mouth, and stay there longer than I allow them to stay anywhere. I look away first, which I resent. He holds the door, offering me a polite smile.

I draw the indigo veil down over my face before I pass through the salon; the house and the street get the gauze. I keep what is behind it for myself. I stand up, stepping past him silently. Walking out ten steps ahead of him, I keep the scrap of paper pressed against my thigh, my face easy. In the holding room the plan was a thing I could decide. Out here it is a man holding a door for me, broad-shouldered and watching me walk, and the week I have to spend turning him begins the moment I step into that sun. My breath comes short and quick. I make my face still. As I step onto the quay, the cold harbor wind gets under the iron on my foot and the raw skin beneath it. The cold stings, and I do not let myself flinch.

Nico

The late-morning sun bakes the teak deck of the Sans Souci, and the harbor fills with its familiar din of shouting merchants. I sit on the stern bench, my shirt unbuttoned, my bare feet resting on the warm wood. A second cup of black coffee sits in my hand, steam rising into the salt wind. The morning has asked nothing of me, and the empty hours before the day begins are mine to waste.

Felix walks down the gangplank, his boots clicking in a steady beat. He is too neat for the hour, his linen trousers ironed, his fair hair brushed smooth. He carries a paper bag of warm harbor bread under one arm, and a leather folder under the other.

"The bakers near the quay are finally open," Felix says, placing the bag on the deck table. He opens the folder, laying a sheet of paper over the wood.

"The bread smells excellent, Monsieur Hartmann," I say, leaning forward to tear off a piece of the crust. The crust is hot, buttered and salty. "Leave the manifests. The sun is too high for columns of numbers."

"The Marie-Claire declared dried saffron and cumin," Felix says, his finger tapping the paper. "Featherweight cargo, carried overland from Tunis. But the harbor logs show her copper sheathing riding under the waterline the whole way in. Saffron does not ride that low. She cleared from the Tunis anchorage, the same origin Armand's last three deliveries gave the harbor master. It is the third ship this season with the same discrepancy."

I chew the bread, my eyes on the sheet of paper. The columns of ink line up into something I prefer to ignore. I slip the paper back into the leather folder, sliding it next to the letter from Valderre, my father's lion pressed into the wax, still unbroken. My gambling receipts from Le Cercle sit beneath it. The pile stays under the table, where piles go, and I pour the last of the coffee.

It is not the numbers. I can read a column as well as Felix; I simply decline to. What the column says, if I let it finish its sentence, is Armand — who bought me my first horse and taught me the set of a sail and has kept the dull world off my deck my whole life. To take Felix's evidence seriously is to call that man a thief and worse, and I would rather keep the man. So I keep the man, the folder goes facedown, and I reach for something to say that is not about a ship.

Below deck, two ribbon-bound boxes from the high-town dressmaker rest on the cabin table. The green cardboard is crisp against the dark teak of the cabin, the white silk ribbons tied in neat bows. Inside, the boxes hold fine silks and white linens, along with swimming clothes. The cuts I chose were not conservative. The lilac slips Madame Eclaire provides for her girls are too thin for the open water. That is the reason. I have considered no other.

"A hospitality concern," I say, as Felix follows me down the companionway. "The bay wind is cold, and the Sans Souci is a working yacht. Guests must be dressed for the weather."

Felix leans against the bulkhead, his arms crossed. His tone remains dry. "You have visited Madame Eclaire ten times this year, Nico. I do not remember a tailor arriving on the quay for any of those occasions."

"The other visits were short," I say, adjusting the cravat on the washstand mirror. "A week is a different matter. One must maintain standards."

"She has dark eyes," Felix says.

"I had not noticed."

I look at the glass, my fingers tying the silk cravat without my having to watch them. The man in the mirror looks comfortable, and that is the only part of him I let Felix see. I slide my arms into my linen jacket, checking the cuffs before I walk back up to the deck.

The walk to Madame Eclaire’s is a climb up the steep limestone stairs of the harbor district. The sun is hot, the wind off the bay carrying the smell of salt and tar. I pass the footman at the front door, his livery immaculately neat, his face remaining blank as he opens the heavy oak door.

I step into the red-silk light of the salon. The room is quiet now, the candles burned down to wax pools in their silver sconces, last night's heat still trapped in the closed room.

I wait in the foyer, both hands still, the way I hold them when I have shoved everything I own onto a hand I have not yet seen. It has been years since a table did this to me.

The door to the inner hallway opens, and she steps into the foyer. She wears the blue silk gown from the stage last night, the bodice pulled a shade too tight across her breasts, the indigo veil down over her face, and barefoot she crosses the floor without a sound. Her brown skin is warm in the red salon light, her dark hair loose, her mouth unpainted and full behind the sheer gauze. The ugly iron is still clamped above her left ankle, scuffed grey against that perfect bare foot, and my jaw tightens at the sight of it. I look at her hip, the bare arch of her foot, the eyes behind the veil, and I do not pretend I didn't. Five hundred solari, and standing here I would have paid it twice and signed over the yacht without looking at the deed. Her head is high, her dark eyes steady through the veil as she stops in front of me, and the steadiness only makes it worse, makes me want the veil gone and her eyes on mine without anything between them. The iron above her ankle is a separate thought, an uglier one, the kind that ends with my hand around a file, and I push it down.

I offer her a polite smile, holding the heavy door open for her.

She steps past me silently, close enough that I catch the warmth of her skin under the worn silk, and walks out ten steps ahead of me into the midday sun. I follow her down the stone steps, my eyes on the sway of her hips and the bare nape of her neck, already counting the days I have bought.