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Chapter 18

Chapter 18: The Saint's Day

Kahina

The pine planks of the deck are fresh, and white shavings curl under my slippers as I step around the hatch.

Nico walks a step ahead of me, and his fingers trace the curve of the oak where the mast will sit. He talks of drafts and carriage capacity in a voice that is light and casual, but his eyes do not leave the timber.

I know the smell of these planks. For eighteen years, my father’s court on the Fallen Coast ran on the wood of the shipyards, and the master builders sat at his table with their fingernails stained with pitch. They argued about sail area and hull balance while the jasmine grew thick against the stone arches. The scent of sawn oak and boiling tar is the scent of my home, and the sharp memory lands behind my eyes to tighten my jaw. I know the shape of a ship meant to survive the gulf.

I look down the long run of the deck toward the bow. The lines are clean and the hold is deep. It is a smuggler's hull, and it is built to run the southern route on spice and timber. Vianello has made a mistake in the sail plan, and the drawings are pinned to the shipwright's bench near the stern.

I walk to the drawings, and I study the ink lines showing the mast steps. The foremast is stepped too far forward for a hull with this much weight in the bilge, and on a long reach with a full cargo of spice, the bow will plunge. The ship will gripe and fight her rudder with every swell, and the helmsman will have to drag the wheel to keep her straight.

I step close to the open hatch, and the hemlines of my gray linen dress brush the planking. Nico looks at the drawings with his dark hair falling over his forehead, and his jaw is set in a quiet line. The deck gives under my slippers the way the shipyard floors at home gave, and my feet know the balance before my eyes can trace it.

Vianello climbs up the ladder, and his dark leather apron smells of fish oil. He stands at the edge of the planking, and he wipes his hands on a greasy rag.

“The rigging is Genoese, Mademoiselle,” Vianello says, and his voice is rough. “Three masts, square-rigged, and she will run ten knots in a good wind.”

“She will gripe,” I say.

The shipwright stops, and his rag is frozen in his hand. He looks at me, and his brow furrows.

“She is balanced, Mademoiselle,” he says, and his voice is tight. “The keel is deep.”

“The keel is deep, but the foremast step is three feet too close to the stem,” I say, and I put my finger on the parchment. The ink is black and dry. “You have planned for thirty tons in the lower hold, and the center of effort will slide forward when the cargo is loaded. In a north wind, the bow will bury. The helmsman will have his arms broken by the wheel before you clear the coastal leg.”

Nico stands by the mainmast step, and he does not speak. His arm rests on the spar and his gaze is fixed on my finger, and the laziness is gone from his face.

Vianello bends over the bench, and his greasy thumb traces the line I pointed out. He counts the frames in a low murmur, and then he draws a charcoal line three inches back from the original step.

“The draft will sit lower,” Vianello says, and his voice drops as he looks at the correction. He nods once in a slow, grudging movement. “We would have to trim the sails constantly on the reach, and it would drag the speed.”

He looks up at Nico. “She is right, Signor, and the mast must slide back.”

Nico climbs down the ladder, and his leather boots are light on the rungs. He looks at the charcoal mark and then he looks at me. His face is serious, and the joke is gone from his lips. In this open yard, he holds no Seravallian shield, and he does not search for a setup to turn the moment into play.

“My father’s court had six shipwrights,” I say, and I pull my hand back from the table. “They argued about the mast placement when we built the merchant fleet, and I listened to them from the gallery.”

“You did,” Nico says.

“The plans were wrong,” I say, and my voice is cooler than I want it to be. “I do not like to see a good hull ruined by a careless hand.”

I walk away from the bench, and my slippers catch on the curls of shaved wood. My own voice irritates me, and the old terms slip out without translation. Since the red sails came, I have hidden my name and my training, and I have pretended to be nothing but cargo for Eclaire's buyers. Today, I gave him the truth of my father's court for a draft plan, and I did not calculate the cost of the surrender. I want to see this hull cutting the gulf clean, and I want to see it with him.

The ship is unfinished and the white wood is raw against the scaffolding. The vessel is his secret project, and he keeps it hidden from Armand and the Duke. Now my finger has left a gray smudge on the drawing.

“We will slide the step back three frames,” Nico says to Vianello.

“It will take three days,” the shipwright says, and he folds the parchment. “The timber must be cut.”

“Cut it,” Nico says. He tosses another copper coin onto the parchment, and he promises to pay for the extra work.

He walks next to me as we leave the slipway, and his shoulder is close to mine. The wind off the bay is cool, and it carries the smell of pine from the hills.

“A princess knowing the mast steps,” Nico says, and his voice is low.

“Do not start,” I say.

“I am not starting,” he says, and his mouth curves. “I am only saying you were right, Mademoiselle.”

“I am not your Mademoiselle,” I say.

“No,” he says, and he stops by the yard gates. He looks back at the high wall of the hull, and the unpainted transom is clean under the harbor sun. “But you will be there when we paint the name.”

I look at the unnamed ship rising against the blue sky. The transom is bare, and the name Malik is still a shadow in my throat, but the scent of the fresh oak smells of home. I want to see the bow cut the water.

“Perhaps,” I say.

We walk out of the shipyard together, and our shadows are long and dark on the stones of the lane.

Nico

Paper lanterns glow in the narrow lanes of Saverno, casting red and yellow light on the damp stones. The town has turned out for the saint’s day. A band plays in the center of the piazza, the music of a fiddle and an accordion bouncing off the church wall. Old men sit by the dolphin fountain, slamming wooden cards onto the stone bench while children run between the long communal tables. The air is thick with the smell of grilled sardines and spilled wine.

Our table sits under a pergola of grape vines at a corner trattoria. The meal is a simple affair, far better than the five courses at the Lumiere. We eat trofie tossed in fresh pesto and a plate of fritto misto, washed down with a carafe of rough local red. Kahina eats slowly, setting her fork down between bites, though her eyes follow the children dancing near the band. I finish the lemon granita, the cold ice sweet on my tongue.

Théo Beaumont appears from the crowd, his collar open and his face flushed. He has his two girls from the harbor and a third on his arm, a tall girl with a red flower in her hair.

“Monsieur Nico,” Théo calls out, raising a half-empty jug of wine. “You are hiding in the shadows. The square is full of women who want to dance, and you are eating grass.”

“I am eating pesto, Théo,” I say. “It is a local specialty. And you are currently holding three times your capacity.”

“The capacity is infinite,” he says, laughing. He bows to Kahina, nearly losing his balance. “Mademoiselle. You must make him dance. He is a stone today.”

The girl with the red flower grabs his sleeve, pulling him toward the center of the piazza where the band has started a fast tarantella. Théo waves his cup, his toast lost in the clash of a tambourine as the crowd swallows him.

The piazza moves. In the ballrooms of Seravalle, the dances are formal waltzes where every step is measured and every look is noted by the chaperones. Here, the music is fast, spinning us into a circle of boots and stamps.

I stand up, holding my hand out to Kahina.

“They are dancing,” I say.

“They are jumping,” she says, her mouth curving.

“Jumping is also a dance,” I say, pulling her onto the stones.

We are terrible. I step on the hem of her gray skirt, and she bumps my shoulder as a fisherman spins past us. A group of strangers elbows between us, laughing as they join hands. We do not know their names, and they shout something at us and pull us deeper into the ring without asking ours. We laugh, my hands catching her waist as we turn in the tight crowd, our breath coming fast in the cool night air.

Later, we leave the noise of the square behind, climbing the steep stone steps to the small room rented above the shipwright's lane. The walls are whitewashed, the wood floor bare and cool under my boots. I push the green shutters open. The music from the square drifts up the hill, the fiddle notes sweet and thin in the dark, the paper lanterns red and small below.

The bed is narrow and steady. It holds under us, the boards silent, the floor solid beneath the legs.

I turn to Kahina. She stands by the open window, her skin dark against the white plaster, her gray linen dress dusty from the dance. I step behind her, my hands finding the laces of her bodice. My fingers loosen the knot slowly, letting the linen fall from her shoulders to her waist.

She turns to me, her chest rising and falling. I draw the dress down, leaving her in the thin chemise. The fabric is light, showing the shape of her hips. I lift it over her head, throwing the gray linen onto the wooden chair.

We lie down together. The sheets are cool, smelling of starch and the salt the sun left in the linen on the line. I kiss her jaw, my mouth sliding down the warm skin of her neck to her shoulder. Her hand reaches up, her fingers tangling in my hair, holding me close.

“You are deliberate tonight, Nico,” she says, her voice low.

“The coach is not until dawn,” I say.

I kiss her collarbone, my hand sliding down the curve of her waist to the soft skin of her inner thigh. She opens for me, her knees framing my hips. I touch her opening, finding her wet and warm. I slide my fingers along her, easing her, my thumb catching the swollen point of her. She sighs, a quiet sound against the music drifting through the window.

“Nico,” she says.

I climb over her, my hands resting on the sheets beside her head. I look at her face in the yellow light of the lanterns below. Her dark eyes are open, her gaze fixed on mine, the proud distance gone. I guide myself to her, sliding in slowly, met by her tight warmth. I do not rush. My movement is a long, steady pull, the slide of her skin warm against mine. She lifts her hips to meet me, her hands gripping my shoulders. We move together, the pace quiet and easy.

She tightens around me, her breath coming in short gasps against my neck. I press deeper, my thumb finding her sweet spot as I move. She groans, her fingers digging into my back as her release breaks in a long shudder, locking around me, then loosening, then locking again. I follow her, spending inside her as I let go, my forehead resting against her shoulder.

Afterward, we lie folded in the narrow bed. My arm is under her head, her hand flat against my chest. Her fingers trace the kohl anchor on my wrist. Out the window, the tarantella is still playing in the square, the accordion notes rising through the vines.

And here, with nothing left in any lockbox, I finally open the one door I have never once opened. I have spent the whole summer looking away on purpose from everything that frightened me, the letter, the manifests, the name Armand, and I have never once looked at the plainest fact of my own life: that I, a man handed everything, spent five hundred solari, and then three thousand, and then my name, on a woman I had never spoken a word to. I have never let myself ask why.

This afternoon she stood on the deck of the one thing I ever built in secret and made it better, slid the foremast back three frames with a finger and a sentence, and a master shipwright bent to her. Somewhere in that it came to me, the way a knot comes back to your hands once you have tied it a hundred times. Buying her was the same act as building this ship. Both done quietly, with my mother's money, behind my father's back, both of them a cage being opened.

I bought her because the recorded sale was the one move that put her past Armand's reach, and I knew that, half-buried, the hour I paid. I bought her because she was caged where I am caged, hers in iron and mine in gold, and she was the one cage in all of Seravalle I could actually unlock. And under both of those, the thing I have spent my whole life not saying: I freed her because I cannot free myself. The lock no one picked for me at seventeen, when my father had the tattooist flogged and told me a duke's son does not run, he finances the voyage. My father financed a voyage to keep a boy in his cage. I financed one to let a woman out of hers. I never looked at it because looking meant admitting the gift was partly about me, that she was partly a door I opened for my own sake. There is nothing left to hide tonight, hers or mine.

I do not say any of it aloud. The wit does not come, and I do not want it.

The coach to Valderre leaves at dawn. The Duke's carriage is waiting, and the betrothal contract sits in the drawer. The road ends there. But tonight, I refuse to look at it. I keep my arm tight around her, the smell of the sea and the hot pine of Saverno still on our skin.

Nico

Dawn comes gray and salt-cold over the harbor. The Sans Souci sits at the stone quay with her lines doubled, the crew moving slow on her deck, coiling rope and stowing the last of the Saverno wine below. The Duke's coach waits at the head of the lane, the horses already in their traces, their breath smoking in the early air. Kahina is up in the rented room still, packing the saffron dress. I have come down alone to see the ship off before the road takes me the other way.

Théo is on the quay, which surprises me. He is gray at the edges, his collar still open from the night, and he has clearly not been to bed. He is not laughing.

"You are sending me home," he says. No honorific. That is the first thing I notice, that the game is off him this morning.

"I am sending the ship home," I say. "You happen to be on it."

"To Valderre, you go up that road with a woman and a satchel and no one at your back." He plants himself in front of me, swaying only a little. "I know your father's house, Nico. I know those rooms. You should not walk into them alone. I should be coming with you. You have no backup."

For once there is no wine in it. He means the word the way a man means it when he has finally found something worth being sober for. It lands somewhere under my ribs, the plain fact that Théo Beaumont, who I have watched fall off a chair laughing, would put himself between me and a room full of his betters because he likes me and thinks I am in danger.

The joke is right there. I let it go.

"No, mon ami," I say. "This is something I must handle alone."

"That is what men say in the songs, just before the bad ending."

"It is also what they say when they are right." I take him by the shoulder. He is warm and unsteady and entirely sincere. "If I bring you, I bring my father a friend to spend. If I bring the ship, I bring him nothing. There is a thing I have to do up there with my own name and no second, and a second would only give them a second man to lean on. Keep the hull dry. Keep the girls out of trouble. Be in Seravalle when I send for you, because I am going to need a fast ship and a friend who did not ask why."

He studies me, and whatever he finds, he stops arguing. He pulls me into a hard, wine-sour embrace, claps my back twice, and lets go.

"Then do not die in a drawing room," he says. "It is a stupid place to die."

"It is the only place my family ever does."

He boards. The lines come off the stone. I watch the Sans Souci take the wind and stand out past the mole, Théo at the rail with one arm up until the headland cuts him off. Then I turn and walk up the lane to the coach, where the road to Valderre is waiting and there is no one in the box but the two of us.