Chapter 13 - The Inspection

Time had passed. He was not precise about how much. The amber light in her quarters had deepened to the red-orange of deep rest cycle, which on Deck 7 appeared to be the same light they used for every other part of the day with the single distinction that the wall unit's hum dropped half a pitch. He had eaten something. She had, in fact, made food: rice from what she called the real rations and a vegetable that he didn't recognize and didn't ask about, eaten on the floor with the bottle. He had slept briefly with his head on her thigh. He'd woken to Eric's voice in the middle of something with her and lay still and listened to them talk until that became its own kind of wanting, and then nobody was talking.

What happened next was, by any reasonable measure, an education.

Jazmine set it up without consulting them and they did not argue. She had moved Eric in front of her on the shelf, then looked at Nathaniel over Eric's shoulder and waited. He understood and moved in behind Eric. The geometry sorted itself from there.

She was on her stomach with her arms folded under her chin. Eric pressed into her from behind, one hand finding her breast, the other flat on the shelf beside her arm for weight. She pushed back to meet him and the sound she made was low and deliberate and she did not muffle it. Her braids were loose against the shelf, wire and tubing catching the red-orange light. Her hips rolled against Eric's and she set the pace from underneath, which was how she'd set the pace all evening, which Nathaniel was still catching up to understanding.

He pushed into Eric and felt him exhale.

Eric's back arched slightly. His hand tightened on Jazmine's breast, thumb across her nipple, and she made the sound again. Nathaniel's hand went to Eric's hip, the muscle of it, the warmth. He pushed deeper and Eric moved with him and the three of them found the same rhythm by a process he could not have explained and did not need to.

Jazmine said something in a low voice that wasn't to either of them.

Eric's other hand came back and gripped Nathaniel's thigh.

The shelf was narrow. The wall unit hummed. The neighbor past the bulkhead was watching something with talking in it. Nathaniel had his chest against Eric's back and could feel the heartbeat in him and could feel the flush of heat across his shoulders, the specific flush he'd known since they were seventeen. He pulled back and drove in again and felt Eric thrust forward into Jazmine and heard her breath come out against her folded arms in a short hard press.

Her hips angled up. She had a hand under herself. He could see her shoulder moving, the compact deliberate motion, she was touching her own clit while Eric filled her and the sound she was making now was lower and more continuous. His cock was slick with Eric. He could feel the grip and the heat of him and the way he moved, forward-back, forward-back, pushed by Nathaniel's pace, pushing into Jazmine's, all three of them working the same chain.

He put his mouth against Eric's shoulder. Salt. Sweat. The smell of the room.

He was thinking about nothing. That was the specific achievement of this room. His thinking had been continuous for twenty years, the self-narrating commentary that ran underneath everything, the governance-family education that had taught him to parse every room for social load and advantage and fault line. Down here, over the last several hours, it had gotten quieter. He registered this distantly, the way you notice a noise you'd been hearing for so long you'd stopped calling it noise.

Jazmine shifted, a small adjustment of her hips, and made a sound that was different from the others. Eric's hand on her breast squeezed. Nathaniel pushed in hard and held there, his thighs against Eric's, his hands on Eric's hips keeping him still, and Jazmine's breath broke and her shoulder stopped moving and she pressed her face into her arms and shook once, twice, longer.

He held. Eric held. The shelf creaked.

She went still. Her breathing slowed.

Then she said, "Okay," into her folded arms. Her voice was completely even. "Keep going."

He kept going.

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Three taps on the pipe. Sharp, close. Then two long.

Jazmine said, "Now."

It was barely a sound. The word contained no volume whatsoever. But her body was already moving, pulling out from under Eric, off the shelf, her feet on the floor before the last tap had finished.

Seven seconds. He understood this somehow without being told, the way you understand the shape of a rule by watching someone else already executing it. Nathaniel came off the shelf and Eric came off the shelf and Jazmine was already at the service panel in the wall, the square of it that he'd noticed earlier and filed as maintenance access.

She had the latch sequence. Fingers on three points in order. The panel swung.

In.

She pulled it closed from inside. The latch caught. Dark.

Not complete dark: a strip of emergency lighting at floor level, orange, running the length of the access corridor. Enough to see a floor and nothing else. Nathaniel stood in the dark with his heart doing something urgent and unreasonable and became aware of several facts simultaneously.

He was naked. Eric, directly in front of him, was also naked. Jazmine, in front of Eric, was also naked. They were pressed together in a space approximately the width of two people attempting optimism, and the maintenance access ran left and right from the panel but had no room to move into because that direction also held pipes and conduits and the close hot smell of years of machinery doing its work.

Through the partition wall, a voice. Tone only, no words. Routine. Bored. The specific cadence of someone doing a corridor check at the end of a shift who is already thinking about the meal afterward.

Footsteps. Slow.

He could feel Eric's back against his chest, the heat of him, the almost-stillness that Eric achieved under pressure: not frozen, not rigid, the deliberate held-quiet of someone managing their own breathing on purpose. Nathaniel managed his breathing. He had done nothing physically demanding in the last thirty seconds and his heart was conducting itself as though he had sprinted three corridors.

Jazmine's hand came back in the dark and found Eric's wrist and gripped it.

The grip of a person in her own territory who had done this before, who had her seven seconds and her latch sequence and her emergency strip at floor level. The grip that said: I have the room, follow my lead.

The footsteps stopped.

Directly outside the panel. He could hear the quality of stopped: not moving-past, not paused-and-continuing. Actually stopped. The bored-voice said something he couldn't hear, possibly to itself.

His back was against the conduit housing. The metal was warm. He didn't breathe.

Ten seconds. It was the longest format of ten seconds he had encountered. His body, which had been recently engaged in an extremely specific set of activities, had apparently not gotten the signal to stand down: he was still warm, still present in his own skin in an inconvenient and comprehensive way, and Eric pressed against his chest was the same and Jazmine against Eric was the same and the three of them in this narrow dark space were radiating heat into each other like a single badly organized system.

He found, in a brief and stupid moment of cognitive clarity, this extremely funny.

He did not laugh. This was an achievement.

The footsteps moved. Slow, resuming, the same bored cadence, the same trajectory-past that was reasserting itself. Moving away. The voice had stopped. The steps receded.

He heard the door to the main corridor. The sound of it cycling.

Gone.

Jazmine did not move yet. Her hand was still on Eric's wrist. Nathaniel was still against the conduit housing, his chest against Eric's back, both of them breathing carefully. She waited thirty more seconds in the silence and he understood she was counting them.

Then she exhaled.

Just the exhale, shoulders dropping a fraction, and she turned her head toward the panel, toward them, the gesture including both.

"Clear," she said. Still barely a sound. "Wait."

He waited.

He was pressed against Eric in the narrow dark with the emergency strip at their feet throwing orange light on the floor and nothing else, and he was aware of every point of contact between them with a specificity that he was not going to examine until later, in a room with more air. Eric had not moved. His breathing had evened. His back against Nathaniel's chest was solid and warm and he could feel the heartbeat in it, not through skin but through the close air between them, the resonance of it.

Jazmine checked the panel seam. She was doing something at the edge of the latch with her fingers, not opening it yet, reading the space on the other side through the gap.

He waited.

His heart had come down slightly from its operational high. He was standing in the dark with two people, all of them in the same state, none of them a foot from the others, and the adrenaline had nowhere to go except where it had come from and it was going there now, irrefutable and inconvenient in equal measure.

He was twenty years old. He noted this in his own defense.

Jazmine looked back over her shoulder. Even in the orange-dark, with almost nothing to see, he could tell she was reading them. She could read rooms in full light. She was reading them fine without it.

She did not say anything yet.

The ship hummed through the walls and through the floor and through the conduit housing at his back, constant and low and deep enough to feel through the soles of his feet. Down here the hum was different from upstairs. No lavender. No smooth. Just the ship, doing what it did.

The panel. They waited. The three of them in the dark.